How come there is no such thing as an 'upward' spiral? Why does it always have to be downward and why does it always have to be inevitable? Yes, my condition is worsening. Life isn't the same anymore - my focus has shifted. Instead of thinking about work, I think about the excess of love songs on the radio and how I am going to spend this new years alone. Which will be a first for me in quite some time. Funny thing is, I explained this situation to another friend of mine who was going through girl trouble at the time.
His woes was almost just like mine and so I gave him the advice that I should've followed for my situation as well. But it's always easier to point and say 'change it' than to actually be there yourself. So right now, I am a mess; mentally, physically and emotionally. My life is one big jumble of intent, things I want/need to get done and the lingering pain of losing someone close to you, possibly for good. She did agree to keep talking to me though, so I told her that I would write her letters. We'll see how that works. Anyway, I need to get some sleep. I got a couple of things I need to take care of tomorrow and I have a surprise for a certain blogger as well.
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